i'm so hot right now i'm scaring myself (halloween reference)

sheer boredom is forcing me to write this. it's become increasingly difficult to pretend to work. and i'm tired of writing "bored" over and over on this piece of paper. in french. if perhaps i didn't share an office with the bosslady, it might be a bit easier. but i can only stare at the same document for so long. pretend to read or write the same thing for only so many hours before things start to look fishy. i can only hope she mistakes this blog, which i ingeniously type in a blank email from my work account, for a lengthy analysis of fundraising efforts.
on with the show.

i've had a fistful of dates lately. which for me is like a monsoon. to follow up the two from the week before, i had three last weekend. Friday's date was like an homage to days of thunder or some other 80s movie that involved speeding down the road next to the beach, top down on the convertible, hair blowing to the tune of Prince. and then there was driving through the mountains at 80 mph and then there was dancing to prince and smooching standing on top of the mountain overlooking the city. so fabulously cliche it all was.
however, when we did kiss, i felt...i felt nothing. well, i felt, "wow. let's not do that again." tragic because he did everything else so well. opening doors, asking questions, making reservations, paying attention, showing initiative. then there's the guy from Saturday, who took me out for a delicious meal. but i felt like if i didn't ask him questions, that we would sit there in silence. i literally felt like i was carrying the conversation on my back, across the sahara, in the blazing sun. i guess he enjoyed himself though because he asked me out again for this weekend, right after we did that "oh, are you going to kiss me?" dance, which ended with his lips on my hairline. Sunday, it was the one who is too young and too cute and too unavailable. we just laid on the couch watching Hook, so i'm not sure that really counts as a "date." and also, we're just "friends." who had "sex." "once."

so here's how the week progressed. Monday, i met a guy on the street. let me rephrase that. i met a guy outside a cafe (much more sophisticated). actually he was outside the blockbuster next door to a cafe, but that's not important. we talked, but no information was exchanged. no sooner do i get back to work than my phone rings. it was him. yet again, another guy with some of that good ol' initiative tracked me down on the internet through my job's website. i'm not sure if we'll go out, that remains to be seen, but damn i love a man who will take matters into his own hands (even if it does involve the internet). then mid-week i had a "business" dinner, but i think the guy kinda liked me. my suspicion was furthered when he invited me to a halloween party. the same halloween party that another guy (the one who doesn't ask questions) invited me to. AWKWARD. i think that's going to be a no-go on both ends. man, this being wanted business is sort of stressful. i think my eczema is flaring up.

i'm not complaining. don't get me wrong. i plan to ride this boat 'til it don't float no mo. however, it just reemphasizes how rare chemistry is. that one little thing that can make everything else, good or bad, obsolete. i haven't found that yet in my fistful of dates...well, not really. but i'll keep enjoying the ride until it hits me.
i am wishin' for a happy halloween in L.A.